Nothing to lose

I never had the guts to stand up and do something. Anything. I am not able to take matters in my own hands when I really should .
Is it so hard to make my presence noticeable ?
Why can't I make the first step ? In the end,I've got nothing to lose , but everything to gain.
I don't know if I'm too shy, I know that I'm afraid.
I don't know if I'm going to make a fool out of myself and that's what probably makes me such a big loser. I don't trust myself and I petty myself for that,but never do anything to change it.
I've tried so hard to change and become more open , but I can't figure out what's so freaking hard!

In love

I never thought I'd be in love like this. I never thought I could fall in love so easily,by a simple "hello" or by a few apparently casual conversations. I think about him all day long and all night long , I see him in my dreams . And he's not even here.
But being in love is the best feeling in life : makes you feel alive !